Sorry that I love you

[MarsIswar]

This thread is a part of my life , a part where I still dwell over till today even after 10 over years it had happen , it still hunt me , some of the incident still feel so fresh like it just happen yesterday... The pain the happiness the moment we went thru together , the name of the thread is the message that I wanted to tell her, but I know that never will I get her forgiveness nor the cheeck to bring it up, For all the deed I have done ... Some of the part will be juicy but alot will be emo...

Sorry that I love you:

For all of the time that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I hold you tight
And I'm So sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
I'm so sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry do can't turn back time
I'm sorry that I loved you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I'm so sorry that I loved you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I loved you

[rh8611]

So what's next?...

[CruzerBaby]

why u so emo, my friend??? Look on the +tive side... I believed its been so long and she had forgiven you... =)

[shaolinkid]

Is there a story coming up?

[MarsIswar]

Originally Posted by rh8611

So what's next?...

1st part will be up later still typing

Originally Posted by CruzerBaby

why u so emo, my friend??? Look on the +tive side... I believed its been so long and she had forgiven you... =)

Well I saw someone alike her just now while my media player was playing the song sorry that I love you sad moment came into mind... As a matter of fact I did try to make up for thing but she decline stating that never in her life she will ever forgive ...
Btw speedy recovery and thank for the +tive encouragement...

Originally Posted by shaolinkid

Is there a story coming up?

Yes dude a matter of fact on process of typing but it painful recalling the sweet moment how we met...

[MarsIswar]

A day of boring of nothing to do with gf not free to be there for me , so I on the com and after log in irc I decided to play doom as not much of people were online. After an hour or so my head was spinning from the glare , I decided to end the game and head to bed for a nap, after closing the game screen I notice an chat window on the screen dated about 1/2 hrs ago
Snowgal88: hi care to intro was on the line of the screen
Me : hey sorry for the late reply was gaming just now...
Me : 16/m/chi going 17 soon if you are still keen
After typing this a call of high tide came so I left for the bathroom and prayer ... Only went back to the com abt 15 min later or so and notice the chat box was flooded, all I can see is *allo* page full ... Faster got my hand on to the keyboard and reply
Me : hi yes I'm here sry for the laps of time
While waiting for the reply with cross finger I scroll the page up to see what else was sent during my absent ... Her reply came
Her : waa you reply dame slow lei... Still gaming ah
Me : haha sry no la went for a leak and pray...
Her : pray????
Me : ya pray to the 6 region god...
Her : lost wat talking you wat 6 region god....
TBC btw does anyone know wat praying to 6 region god???

[CONFOST]

The joke in your Signature is funny!! I like it.

[MarsIswar]

Me : smoking la toot... Haha
She: smoke say smoke la ...praying
Me : haha ok yup intro pls
She:14/f/chi
Even with the 4 year of age difference , there was nothing we cannot talk about with her bubbly and happy go luckey personal , we got close to each other very soon... Very soon we started calling each other dear , time fly we have chatted for more than hrs finally it time to bid goodbye , not wanting to take thing to our hand we leave everything to faith , neither did we exchange number nor name we left irc , everything went back to normal in my life... Study and work due to not coming from a well to do family life was hard... Need will be provided by my parent but wants we have to deal with it on our own , young in age vain and playful I were most of the time I spent my act sch hrs and weekend working , plus the com were shard by me my elder brother and younger brother ,hardly I will have time to be on irc very soon she was erease from my mind...

[MarsIswar]

Originally Posted by CONFOST

The joke in your Signature is funny!! I like it.

Thank for the compliment on my signature... Hope you like the tale that is written now too Prost..

[MarsIswar]

Thank for the point up dude... With the encouragement you give I now feel like Jonny walker : keep on walking but this instant is keep on writing thank and Prost ... Hope your have enjoy till now more to come

[GeMiNiZzzzZzz]

Those were the days

[MarsIswar]

Time fly 2 to 3 week have Pass before I got another rest day, finally I got a chance to slag at home , at that point of time 风云rpg was an in thing , I'm not really a gamer but at time to kill time I will play a while , my elder brother was playing the game half way he receive calls and needed to head out , so I help him took over the game , it was @ the stage of 百人阵 for those who have play the game will know wat I'm talking abt , it a super hard stage well after alot of attemp unable to get thru I'm getting piss off , so I decided to tab out of the game log on irc and head for a puff ... After my puff there it was the chat box was floating on my screen with a line : ( hi dear ) , puzzle and forgetful I was
Me : hi intro pls
She: waa people forget me Liao
Me : erm sry STM please refresh my memory while looking at the nick
Soon enuf I remember who she was haha earning a scream for myself
TBA

[MarsIswar]

Originally Posted by GeMiNiZzzzZzz

Those were the days

Yes bro those were the days, days of growing up...

[MarsIswar]

Very soon we were chatting like Long lost frend once again, seem like fate has brought us together, finally before I log off I decided to ask for her number, lady luck was smiling on me, we exchange number and decided to end the chat , happily save the number in my cell phone( something that I'm super proud of to own a 8850 dunhill wooden bOx set thinking of it where izzit now???), life was back to normal with a few SMS exchange once in a while , we always adress each other as dear. ( thinking of it now it still so sweet) , it took us abt 3 month to find out something...
Finally the day came , with nothing to do and boring I decided to call up her wanting to chat as I'm lazy to type , found her number on my phone and dial to her , after a few ring the phone was pick up a very sweet gal gal sound pick up the Phone follow with a question
Her : hallo Who you looking for??
TBC

[MarsIswar]

For that very instant I froze , jam with word, for the very 1st time I found out we never knew each other name very ironic but true, in the nick of time she save the day, grabing the phone from her younger sister a sweet hallo was on the other side of the line... Loosing of word nothing came from me... It so funny my mind was still hanging on the question, only after a few min I came back I than replied ... Hi dear a short reply came
Her : hey it you never expect you will call
Me. : haha ya ops did I call at the wring timing
Her : no la was bathing just now just came out
Me. : ic haha ya btw I just found out something
Her : wat???
Me. : haha erm it a bit strange I dun really know how to put it across...
Her : ahoy wat la just say la...
Me. : erm ok I just notice that I do not know your real name...
With that both of us started laughing kinda of cute and sweet thinking of it now... Finally with all the laughting done she told me her name but a little joke was crack upon hearing her name.....
TBC