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Half year ago, I discovered that my husband is a member of this forum. I have three kids. And to make the matter even worst, my husband had fallen in love with a FL. When I discovered this, I wanted to commit suicide with my three kids. I was thinking why men can't be faithful? We have been married for more than 10 years. And I am a good looking wife. I have lots of opportunity where men come to approach me but I never give a chance because I love my husband. For many years, I know my husband as a good loving husband and a loving father of my children. I never thought that he was one of the samsters here. I do not wish to hurt my husband; this dark secret has been kept between me and him. No one else knows about this. I have to act cheerful and like nothing had happened, before my parents, relatives and friends. As they know I am a cheerful person, I have to act it out even though my heart breaks. As I live with my parent-in-law, I can only release my sadness by hiding in the toilet crying after midnight. As I do not wish to annoy my husband by crying in front of him, so I choose to hide and cry in the toilet. I come to this forum to search for an answer. I now know that it is not because men are selfish, it is because they have their needs. But I don't know why this happened to me. I guess 99% of woman who have this kind of encounter will think this way. Because my husband was KCed by his FL lover that's why he fallen for it. After that I have discovered, my husband tried his best to keep me. He explained that he lost control that's why he does such a thing. I never blamed him for this incident, as I am his first GF/Lover and he does not have any other relationships before. I suggested that I would leave him and let him be with his lover. But he refused to. My husband had posted a topic in this forum. In the topic, he had written about how miserable his lover is and how he needs to help her. At first, my husband just treats her as a friend and hopes to help her out. But she KCed him and make him fall for her. I have seen this lover of my husband before. She is just a normal looking woman which I think I am much better looking than her. She is not young. She is a MILF with a child. I had talked to her on the phone and she had promised not to see my husband again. But she betrayed me as she meets my husband again the next day. She showed my husband her swollen eyes because she cried that few days after her breakup with him. And she even sung him a love song. And because of this, my husband could not get over and posted his rants in this forum even though they are no more in contact. My heart hurts badly even today. I am living in misery. My husband had done a lot of things to win my heart back. He brought me to places we go during our courting time to hold me back. But I am still lost today. I don’t know which path I should choose. The problem lies with me. I could not get over what my husband had done half year ago and what he had written in this forum.